Walking to sleep again

So to round out this exercise of past CEOs that I have worked with comes my final one. Honestly I have given a lot of thought what to share of this CEO. I have a great deal of respect for what this CEO was trying to do and what they came into. The organization had been under a lot of pressure from its customer base and changing community needs. A fricition between the founding ideals what made the community and new ones as people were coming into the community was being reflected into the the company’s boardroom. This CEO came in with an idea to move the company to a future that challenged a lot in the community. While I was in the that reality during this time, I did not understand the impact of it. I had not been sleeping before this CEO arrived, and did not sleep after. I was trying to protect while helping navigate through it. This CEO came as a relationship builder and power networker; at least that was the promise.

What did I find? I came to a reality that was going to test my talk and whether I could do the walk. I had always believed that I would be able to walk away from something that I found to be a place I did not want to be. I was torn with a desire to protect those around me. Trying to manage the marbles of those when I was losing my own. You see, it didn’t take long for me to realize that the leadership style of this CEO was not one that worked for me. I would like to believe I was putting others ahead of me, and this CEO was the opposite. It was time for me to walk my talk and it wasn’t long after I started to seek a CEOship for me. 26 years, I started to reachout and look for other opportunities; ultimatley moving on after 27. It was a hard walk to do and even to this day I worry about marbles of others that are still there; but I needed to start to sleep again.

Sleep I do now….

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